Saturday, May 26, 2007
Nothing ever seems right recently. And crying seems to be becoming part of my pastime. Now i dont care so much about my workload already, I will just leave at 5.30pm (the knock off time). I wont stay till night time, i will head home and rest and go online.
Seriously, didnt want to turn this into a negative blog but, my life kinda sucks at this stage.
Like when you're feeling all so lost, and stressed, and ok for me, sometimes i dont know where im heading coz im super blur >< --> Once, i even almost walked into a guy's toilet until my colleagues asked, "You want to come in?"
My mom keep asking me to go and start furthering my studies. But she never consider the possible outcomes and the requirements for studying. Just like how my parents never consider family planning -.- (sometimes i think if i had never exist on this world before, they might be better well off, coz one less child to support)
They didnt consider about the money that i would need for studying. Like i havent even get my first pay yet! And i always tell her im so stressed at work. She thinks that im exaggerating it >< and she told me that, "everything that you do, makes you stressed ha."
If you just got started on a job, and you are so new to everything, theres so much to learn. And, definitely you would feel very stressed, and your mom still wants you to study right after you knocked off from work. I really get the thought of, "hey do you really want me to die that badly?"
The good part about working is, erm (havent come yet though), is getting salary, get better meals when you get home. You get to talk to people, (although sometimes you dont want it, but still you have to), like customers.. your bosses.. your colleagues etc.
AND the bad parts are so many!
1. You're working all the time, you're wondering why people can keep walking to pantry and always get a cup of water every one hour, and why people are looking at those things when you peeped at their screen.
2. You do so much till you really really wonder what are those other people in the office doing. Like, hey this isnt my work actually, its their work!
3. Sometimes when you wanna pee so urgently, but your work keeps stopping you, coz they're urgent too. If late by one minute, you will cause the company to get fined in thousands.
4. You cant really go out with other people that are not from your office, eg. your friends.
5. You cant do your own things when you're working, except using the toilet or drinking water.
6. You must sound firm and happy to customers even though you're sleepy or having bad mood.
7. You get locked outside the house when you go out with friends for a dinner.
8. You get online when you're back home from work, and you get irritating people like your cousin asking, "playing conquer?"
9. Your mom thinks you never do enough. She would make you do something whenever you're at home.
10. Your father thinks you're doing nothing when you returned back home from work, scolds you, and gets you to do chores (to help the mother out ).
11. You cant do much things when you start working. Your parents are restricting you from almost everything except for eating peeing shitting sleeping and drinking. And when you told them you're not getting any freedom, they would simply ask you to move out and they will wash the hands of you. --> But this could lead to severing ties.
Erm, thats just some parts of the bad points, and there are still many many many more!
- evileen