Sunday, December 23, 2007
Tears is flowing like a fast stream river right now. I really can't understand why it is too myself.
Early in the morning, ok, I guess I slept late (@ around 3am), I got woken up as usual by her. I opened my eyes. There in her hand, she was holding a wooden stick. You should have known what it's for.
Unsurprisingly, anyone would be wondering why she needs to do that. I want to know too.
She is not happy that I'm going out so often (well, only 2 days, maybe I went home later than usual) "Huh? On holiday, then keep going out huh. Everyday go out!"
And there she goes nagging about throwing my things. <-- Wants me to throw my things instead of going out. "You keep going out, then no need to pack all this things is it?!"
I have already thrown away my stuff (even those unused stuff). That was like a month ago or something. I guess everything is not important to me, besides my laptop and my keyboard. So I placed them all in a corner, the place for rubbish waiting to be thrown away.
So I felt upset.. and was starting to shed, while wondering why must she do this. It seems that she's not happy with whatever I'm doing. Its not that I didnt give her allowance every month. Ok maybe $200 is quite lil to her, but im not the only one working. My 1st brother also is giving her $200 every month, and my father is also working, and he's too giving her money. I couldnt give more, I know she would understand because I'm saving it for my studies. Not gonna take money from my parents anymore.
And she said, "Faster go and marry lor. Find a place, and dont live here."
-_- Im like "what the hell" inside.
Then my 2nd bro was kinda annoyed what she's saying, then he ask her to shut up. But she kept scolding me nevertheless.
Then I started messaging jasmine to tell her i might not be going out with her. And she's not happy again. She started scolding on the "smsing"."Huh, everytime I scold you must go and message people. Dont feel paiseh is it. Later people look down on you. Dont think I dont know what you are messaging."
I really hate this part of being too nosey in people's business. I mean, I have never taken a handphone out of her money before, and she hadnt pay my bills in the past or now. If she were to do that, I might still think its
a little reasonable . It should always be my own business as it always is. How can she always eavedrop me when I'm on phone, not that she's paying my bills, and afraid that I'm talking too much and she had to pay more. And the same goes for the sms. My brother is terribly annoyed, and said, "Aiya, why you always like that one, she's messaging people she's not going out la." Didnt want to go out, coz ok.. since going out makes my mom unhappy, and also maybe jasmine is doing her hair.. and the others is SO UNDECIDED and didnt confirm on the time of the meeting. Talked to one of them, and she was like, "Not sincere one, like dont want to go out like that." So I said, "Coz we are the decorations." xD I think she didnt get the meaning out of it. Coz its meant to be a secret I have kept for someone -_-" A bad secret that would hurt his gf probly. She wanted to bring her parents out for a walk, but isnt sure if the 2 of them would settle on the time and place. So it makes it very difficult for us to do our own stuff. So, she was asking if we should cancel it, and I suggested her to send a msg to ask us if we are ok with the time and venue, if there's no reply, then that's it. Actually what I meant by decorations earlier was, -.- the 2 person is actually dating each other in secret. Which I think is a bad thing coz one has a gf. Surprisingly, I know his friend who knows was a very good friend in the past, and still contacting. So maybe thats why he told me the secret. -.-" Bu ne shuo de mi mi.
Ok maybe I should start wrapping the other presents to cheer myself up. Wrapping is the most exciting part of a present =)
- evileen