A FairY TalE No MorE..

You know the story

You read the books

Boy meets girl

Then they fall forever in love

But I know better

So here goes a tale

Of the realest of the real

Listen


Now once upon a time in a small world

It was everything that I dreamed of

He was my gem and I was his pearl

Nothing could come between us

A prince charming to call my own

Until the day that he broke my heart

And left me wonderin all alone

Pickin my mind and soul apart


Used to believe in love

Used to believe in fairy tales

Since my heart's been crushed

I don't believe in much, I need help

Don't know which way to turn

Figure it out for myself

I've just started to learn

There's no such thing as fairy tales


Is a good story supposed to end

Unhappily ever after

Just as wonderful as it begins

And carry on for a few chapters

Baby how come each time I open up

I can't seem to get past stage one

I guess it's time for me to close up

And go back on the shelf because I'm done


Twinkle twinkle little star

Why do my dreams seem so far

Up above the world so high

Won't somebody tell me why

Can you help me out

Can you tell me what love is all about

Cause I never known it for myself

That's why I don't believe in fairy tales no more

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Had a big cry just then. Now blogging with "goldfish eyes". Today feeling real sad.. planned to go bank tmr and stuff already, friend pressing me for the timing but im really gonna be busy tmr so i dont know what will be the time i'll be meeting them? So i just told one of them.. If you're meeting your bf.. then meet him ba, it's ok with me =). Haiz..Then dont know what.. was talking to the mom, she told me not to buy concession first, 'cause i used the $52 for bus stamp on black shirts $38, and $10 for topping-up busfare, so i was telling her, $2 left. She said, "so tmr take out the $52 from your bank and buy " "okie.." Oh yea.. today you gave me allowance already. Then i told my brother, " You know dine at suntec so exp.. $6.. i must chip in more money on my own everyday." "Aiya.. suntec for sure de ma.. at least need dont know how much le" "ya lor..$6...cant reallt survive le.. now like no money like that.." She entered the room, and asked, "what did you say just now? Isnt $6 enough for you to eat? You think you're going to get all the good food? You think what.." "It's not that Im saying $6 is little.. but a decent meal there need at least..$3.50 So err can i have my atm card tmr plz?" "NO. im not going to give it to you. I will keep it." "what??" /...

She went away and i broke down and cried.. All my efforts has gone down the drain..The days i spent working..could be used for a break.. but i chose to work just for the sake of money. And now.. i cant even touch it..

My bro overheard and said, " do you think $6 is enough for a normal person to survive? You are not her.. you wont understand.. It's really tough.." "So you think she can get the card and you get to borrow alot of money from her again eh?" "Do you know what you are saying? May i know your age plz? You sounds like a 5 yr old kid."

Sighs. tmr.. will i be sad again? I dont feel like going to school.. or work in future again.. I really have no interest in games.. nothing in particular anymore..Life's meaningless.. It did came across my mind before, if i wanna end my life to put a stop to all this torment..Maybe one day i will.. i dont know.

- evileen

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Tomorrow is going to be my last day le..

So aww~ Come back on laptop le.. the wmp de randoms songs.. all is love de.. so aww~ Feel like Zzz.. de feeling also aha..But saw kor's nick, "Hen Tong..The wound bleeds.."

Hmm..Think it's gonna to take some while again for it to be healed ba..The wound will not be healed totally.. but at least, it will not feel that bad ba?

On my way home, standing on the train before me was a very very naughty kid.. I wonder why parents.. will just sit back and do nothing when their kids are misbehaving. I cant imagine..why the mother took the seat for herself, and not for her kids? She's so self-centred..Their father also.. never say anything de..X_X And i was leaning on the glass.. then suddenly heard the boy say to his sis, "Hey i learnt a word,DEENM"

sis: "huh?? Is there such a word?I dont think so.."

naughty boy: "There! *points at me* She says de " (>.<""") BIG SWEAT

sis: "oh.. wrong la.." then dont know what she spelt.. *scratches my head* My shirt dont have such words..eh??

Im a super sensitive person who cant stand negative remarks about me, strangers to talk about me, or strangers to stare at me (-_-") Though you may see me laughing after "some people" who commented nasty remarks..about me..infront of me, to me to be exact..Im taking it very seriously okie..? Anyone who talks to me, please think twice of what you are going to say..lol..

Oh well.. yesterday on the train to work and to home, for both trips.. there's always a person who stare at me. First, it was like this..on the train to work..Was about to alight at City Hall.. then I turned to face the direction of the doors that would be opened. Then.. this guy @_@ dont know why looking at me as if im some martians or i owe him money like that. On my way back home.. on the train.. same thing. But more annoying. This lady who was standing just infront of the person who is standing before me, 'cause her view of me was blocked right?? Then she stretched her way all up to see me (>.<") i dont think im thinking too much.. I wasnt looking at her.. but then suddenly isaw a head like that.. (-_-") So I was wondering what's happening.. And she was looking at me. yes. (>.<") As if im some animals from the zoo, again. So was feeling real uncomfortable.. so i went to take another position on the train, having my back facing her. And when i shifted position again, there she was.. facing me again..><" Looking at me.* Big sweat* So i was thinking.. is this a lunatic or what... so was having alot of thoughts on my mind. "Erm.. shift to another bunk???" Get really annoyed with those people on the train.. no choice.. so crowded. but still have to go work right..haiz..There was once, a guy just lean on the pole i was holding on to, i was feel so damn disgusted.. by his position and everything.. and once to school.. this guy.. the hand ><" MY hand was below there.. then the distance of his and my hands are about erm.. 10inches apart.. then imagine he slide all the way down and can ahem going to touch my hand ><" i quick let go and grab another place.. SAME THING HAPPENED AGAIN.. Same guy, Same Hand (-_-") Same movements.. on a different pole.. ARGH

I wish i could drive a car.. or to be chauffeured around.. dont like taking crowded trains and buses. I just dont like the annoying feeling.

Today I broke world's record..Dine at Suntec for only $5 for both lunch and dinner (-_-")

Allowance for yesterday and today: $12

Yesterday spent..around $7. X_X Forgot the exact amount.. Just know that what i take is always not enough for what i eat.. sighs..So today.. budget abit.. plan at 10am what to eat for lunch already..Nah..im not going to eat the same thing again. Tomorrow will be last working day aka. last holiday..eat what i wanna eat ba..

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Some things to stress.. i dont like people who are more loaded to look down on those who are not as rich. I hate such people. OR as my ex-colleague, jianming termed it, "materialistic people".
So what if you are more loaded? Do you actually got it by your own efforts? Do you think you are qualified to depise people?

Im not a rich girl. but i dont go around begging people for money.. Sometimes..people wanna give me a treat i will just joke around "okie!", or for those decent ones.. i will just.. say.."it's ok.. i can cope with it =)" I dont depend on any other people even for my online games, for instance,RO. Dont know how many people has offered to give me zeny in the past.. but i rejected them all. One thing is very important to me. That is.. pride. What i wear what i eat what i use, is not by stealing, robbing efforts. Everything i have got, is by orthodox means. I wrote this chunk of words for some reasons.. It's because what some people said in the past, has caused a deep wound in me. I wont mention the names.. but those who said it, will know it.

Okie dookie.. hope tomorrow ends well.. and gonna pass timesheet to xiuling and maybe the cupboard key to richard to help us pass to Calis.. When sch starts on maybe 2nd week then i get anime from jianming ba X_X so bored.. when school starts.. nothing i can do...

Oh ya.. Monday.. maybe i going to town.. also need to do some stuff in the bank before that.. Monday..Hope it will turn out well ba =)

- evileen

Friday, October 28, 2005

As usual, i was bored and started sending sms this morning. Sent a "Enjoy your last day! And jiayou~" to my two ex-colleagues.. the company i left a few days ago.. And samantha replied,"We left yesterday already. Worked for an hour. Too efficient. Finished sorting real fast...." Oh well.. i guess it's a blessing in disguise to me and jianming ba.

Today VIPS/Big shots came today for the roadshow. Imode arranged people from restaurants to come and set up nice tables and buffet.. Erm.. smells nice the whole day.. Argh~ SPH ppl nv get to eats it.. haha i mean.. me and xiuling =X The ones and only..So we get to see a couple of celebrities.. erm.. tay bing hui.. zheng xiu zheng..zhou chong qing.. and two more sportsmen?

Miss shendia and michelle for their entertainment.. The day seems really long..and worse without their presence..*sighs* Although i've known them for just.. 3 days.. but they are really fun-loving people..so sad..

So at night supposed to get my dinner again, was looking around erm.. around the fountain of wealth, and i saw a familiar face.. Aha! That's Huiru!! Lol.. Johnny's fave. Kinda amazed that she said that her pay was lesser than mine.. hmm.. so.. i guess my job is the slackest job ever. So we chatted for a while.. And yup!! Haha.. can fully utilise my break that is.. an hour.. to chat with her..Hmph.. but she's not working tomorrow.. guess i will see her around on sunday.

Erm.. 2 more days.. And monday i need to do many things already i supposed? Hmm. hopes..i have a nice weekend and meet more nice people around before school starts.

- evileen

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Today i spoilt it all again in the morning. Was about to go off for work, then told my mom, gonna get new jeans by next week. X_X To save me from all the naggings.. xian ku hou tian.. should be better ba? There she goes again..And i have to rake up the past.. bla bla.. and then feel sad again. That was in the early morning.

In the morning i reached the Roadshow booth before xiuling. Hmm.. And then learnt that those people that i normally talks to.. will be parting us..and that their last day will be today. So sudden..Because their head found that there're too many people already.. Those invited guests.. are few. So.. That lady actually told them,"Well.. anyone who's not happy with the job, may leave." Kinda of indirect "sacking". And then.. my "starhub frens" that i befriended with, couldnt take it anymore.. with their so-called "pride"..So they have already set their mind, ready to go.

Well.. nothing much to write already.. Just feeling tired.. and feel that I have a wonderful day because im not offended by anyone at all~.

Oh oh..Monday's coming soon.. It's Hell Day!~ I hate to go to school..'cause.. of some reasons.. X_X People who knows me well.. will know it. All in all, I dont enjoy going to school anymore.

- evileen

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

It was right. The place.. where we've been to..I remember.. the citylink lights shone on the ground.. when that person asked, " do you know where you are?"

It was how i found my way to the workplace everyday. But now, it was the feeling of being lost and lonely.

For all my jobs, I've never failed to bring laughter to people..and they say I'm humorous.. yeah..proud of that. Erm..Today..cracks some jokes as well.. haha..and we laughed and laughed and laughed.. just wanna break the silence.. and the boredom hmm...

Sad that i gotta eat lunch and dinner alone for an hour each. I always get back too early. Haha.. taking a detour around the fountain of wealth..And just when i was on the spot of where the jukebox was located..It played.."take my picture off the wall..if it wont sing for you.." A slow song just to suit my walking pace..Feeling lonely out of the blue again.. Trying to fully utilise the break time.. but then no matter how i slow i am.. i will always get back earlier..That is.. when you are alone.. time passes so slowly..When you are with your loved ones.. your friends.. your family..Time flies as fast as a streak of lightning.

Took alot of crazy photo shots.. with friends.. Hmm nice shots.MMS alot to my email. Received only some..Maybe will try again tomorrow for the best photo i wanted so badly. Okie..Gotta end here.. hope tomorrow will be a blessed day for everyone and pray hard for py to get her job..God Bless..=)

Not to forget..I loathe my school.

- evileen

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Today reported to Suntec City Convention hall Gallery East. Called Calis, and wow, it was a really damn easy job. Will get the phone everyday when i go work, S410i the 2.5G phone.. So basically my job is to play with the phone and sit/stand, promotes a little when someone passed by. Got a laptop on our booth as well. The SPH booth, only me n xiuling is representatives from SPH, the rest is OCBC and STARHUB promoters. Well, xiuling is a new friend i've made today. A better and easier job i would say, compared to the Taylor Nelson, the company that sucks big time. How would a company notify you that a project is done just before 2 hours you're leaving? CRAP!

Good that i have this job.. well well.. okie.. i should stop complaining for now..

Saw my dear fren de blog ar.. really sorry.. i working.. so cannot meet you on Thursday.. You said you wanna book me.. Now it's my turn to say I wanna book you. Jes, hear that? I really want something different.. something to change my life.. at least.. to make it interesting?Since I've lost interest in everything.. including games bla bla..so now im finding for my new interest.. hmm.. what could it be? MONEY? X_X

Next week will be the start of the sch new semester. Im not in the least excited at all. Nothing is worth for me to be excited for. Well.. it will just mark another beginning of a boring school term. And.. i will return to my own world.. again..alone..When will i ever see you girls again?? I miss you girls..even now.

This holiday i really feel glad. It is 'cause i get to see you girls, and also i can get to work, earn more money, really slack and do things that i feel like doing.

Today ate dinner and lunch alone. No choice. I had my dinner at the later timing. lunch 1pm, dinner 6.30pm.

hmm.. wonder what to get for my gers.. X_X Cracks my head..really hard..but i will try..

I hate my school.

- evileen

Monday, October 24, 2005

Today was rather a surprising day. Many things happened at one go. Today agent called me in the morning to pass her the time sheet by today or tomorrow. Then i confirmed with her im going to town already to her office after 6pm. Today Sky n Samantha never come for work. one was sick while the other was doing project stuff i guess. Only me and jianming. I thought it was pretty cool.. data-entry that could last us for the entire day. Today was weird la.. only both of us went for lunch. Hmph. But as usual, i eat damn slow.. After meal, went out to lie on the couch and rest a while.. and sms to disturb some haha! then rest till 1pm le the jianming also dont want to leave for work. X_X lol..Had wanton noodle for lunch and and my dear fren said , "I must have that western food for the last day!" Yeah..was planning what to do for the last day already.. Until it was around 2 or 3 pm , our supervisor told us tomorrow no need to go already.. 'cause the project has finished. I was really surprised.. 'cause i've calculated the earnings i should be getting for the month. And what?! It ended earlier than the time frame.. kinda disappointed and felt like crying, couldnt help but to think that im not efficient enough. Kept complaining to my dear "sch-mate" Wanna me to go in office and ask if the other gers who were not present today is working anot. And supervisor say yes. So.. hard to convince him that we are the only ones who no need to come back XD. "REALLY ANOT?? KNN..."

Pretty upset..and it made me wanna T_T. The time was just right. Agent called me to remind me the time sheet and also time sheet for the day and i asked her, why is it my last day. She convinced me that it's not that we're not efficient but, the project has ended. If we still report to work as usual, there will be nothing that we can actually do! No more work need to be done. Oh well..she said the company praised us for our performance saying it's pretty good.. Hmph.. i wonder if that's true. So i was just trying my luck to ask the agent if any jobs is still available that im able to do like promotor's job?? then she said," erm.. none at the moment. I will find for you." And soon enough, she called me back to say she has found one new assignment for me. Promotor for SPH, $6/hr, from 10 am to 8pm for one week. Haha.. everyone kinda psychoing me to skip sch just for that monday, so yeah.. i just accepted it after 15 mins i made a callback. Yeap.. she wanan get my pic.. i said no.. but she asked for my friendster.. and haha she's forgotten how to play friendster.. then i teach her again.. X_X She used my friendster pic?!?!

Yes. She used that pic. I headed to Ngee Ann City like around 7.15pm and waited for her meeting to be over. Soon after her meeting, she say, "Eh! Huimin!" then ya.. got me seated in a room, and first sentence that came out from her mouth was, "Do you wear contact lens?" I was thinking for a few secs. "contact lens..?? Ain't I promoting something else??" I replied no. haha.. and she said i'll look nicer with contact lens.. err.. maybe i will look into that in a few years' time. Yeah.. i would say she's efficient. Always got me a job in no time! Haha..Good good..likes to see her also.. 'cause hmph..just like to see her. X_X

After i got the job.. took the lift down.. and then called mom to say i will be shopping for black clothes, and she say, "HUH SHENG MO?! YI WEI WO SI LE AR?!?!" @_@ wah..

Today... eat cuttlefish hor.. but got a new job for me so im quite stable now already. Heaven cried for us when we left the SLF Podium. "Everything happened for some reasons. God has arranged it for us." Hmm..

Hope tomorrow can be a better day and another new beginning.. hopes it's like what my agent have said, "This job doesnt need you to have skills.. easier than the previous one." Gonna report to someone tmr.. but i took the wrong copy of the contract.. err.. so sms my agent, but she's left the office already. tmr will call her at 8am to get the no. so okie..gonna report to the "person" at 9.30am.. wonder how to get to that place.. okie.. gonna check it out now.

- evileen

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Today was supposed to update my posb bank book and also to repair my phone. But well, who knows where's the place? Bro went over to friend's house to stay, to study i think. Before he left, he called me bitch for one reason. I have betrayed him. I was told not to tell mother anything that happened between him and his gf. But mom kept probing me.. she said she will never reveal anything about her health to me. Although it seems that no one cares, but sometimes, i really feel worried and scared for her. Just that..i dont show it.. When you show it, it just the person sadder right..? I felt guilty.. really guilty.. i didnt mean it. She threatened me with that.. and was actually very concerned about it until i was left with no choice, but to blurt the truth out. Nothing much infact.. just that he doesnt want mom to know.. coz he doesnt want anyone to form a bad impression of that "gf". But things turned out to be fine already.. hmm.. just went down to collect some stuff from aunt which she has bought for us again. Father went somewhere to do something, so mom took (aunt's husband)Uncle Simon's car to another aunt's house. Always psycho my mom to go out.. but she doesnt want to. Always say.."wo de jiao tong" or "jiao ma bi". Good that they asked her to go visit their house ba.. better than staying at home all the time.. not good for health and also not good for the mind. So when i came up..went to tell kor got sushi wor.. alot.. Just so much that it makes me hungry again. And he replied me wor.. means ok le ba..

Dont know why i love to chiong out so much now.. Whenever at home, especially on weekends, 'cause never work on saturdays and sundays.. feel like going out to have fun or someone's company. X_X Haiz.. but always so hard just to get someone to go out now..Junior asked me when i will be free.. but then..she say wanna wait for the rest to be free as well.. the more the people, the merrier was what she implied. And dont know why.. maybe people working at my workplace.. like all wear skirts everyday.. hmm.. quite nice.. or maybe was it..because of the women that wears men's clothes everyday that urge me to get more "girlist" clothes now. Dont know what has come over me.. Guess it should be something good.. Sooner or later.. need to change abit for the better. Got one fren ar.. =X knows how to da ban.. lol.. so well that.. i also want to da ban already. X_X So.. i will try my best.. to "da ban" erm.. that will be my "short and long term plan" . Perhaps it's due to something in science called, "pheromones". Something.. erm.. that affects human's behaviour.. When frens get too close together.. they will behave the same way somehow? When pets and their owners.. spent too much time together.. the owner will look like the pet? And also.. it can be used to attract people from the opposite gender. Sold in bottles.. X_X in some "countries". Well, i know all these stuff 'cause of my bro, he was looking into business i think.. then saw this thingy.. haha.. pretty interesting..Can u imagine it? Pheremones sold in spray bottles.. just to attract the opposite gender? Oh well..Tomorrow gonna.. be the start of another week.. Gonna be a monday blue~ i think..X_X and i will complain n complain n complain.........hope tomorrow.. turned well to be a nice day. Give me some more data entry work! I dont want to call! X_X Or if i really were to call.. hopes i will get no.s of really nice people again.

- evileen

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Yesterday was a friday. Took the bus 166 as usual to work at 9.30am. Bus was crowded with old folks. Unable to withstand the fact then im SITTING n an old folk was STANDING just next to me, i gave my seat to her.. and i stood instead, all the way to my workplace. Nice to get people to say a "xie xie ni". It just makes my day somehow. Last time when i worked in POPULAR.. when people just say, "thank you". I can really smile the whole day =). Was totally disheartened when the others got their first completed interview that was taking for like about 30 min to 45 min. I was still trying my luck then..Till the end of the day, i got mine! Whaha! And again, when i asked about participating in this kind of interview again, the old lady said, " Of course! Good things have to be shared.. ^^" Yeah.. makes my day again..~

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Agent called me to submit the pay slip to her, so that she can credit money into my bank. So today hafta go down to her office.. though she's not around by 12.30pm. Didnt manage to get my friends to go out with me.. All busy.. sob sob.. terribly sad.. So was trying my luck if i could get my ex-colleague to go out with me.. Thankfully, she's off today.. So went out with me..after i've done my stuff n meet her thereafter.

Today went to many places? Orchard.. Plaza Singapura..Habourfront..Erm.. spent quite alot on busfare. Went to CarreFour in PS..So my friend was like so happie when we came across a keyboard, and urged me to play, then i play for her.. haha. "no license hor..=x" So dont know why.. people gathered around us.. *big sweat drops..* So i didnt care..Im not alien anyway.. maybe i played too badly.. but then .. as long as my fren enjoyed it.. so who cares?? Haha!! So i continued.. hmm.. till one part.. when i striked a key.. X_X I was like errr..wrong note? press again.. ERH?? I was damn sure it was the right key.. then i looked again.. oh well.. a short kiddy was pressing on the "tuning part" making it" Onh~~Onh~~" making it sounds sharper or flater..
X_X i was err.. stunned awhile.. then like nv play already.. friend says, " aiya.. let's go =x" So i went off.. and she added, " after the kid is gone then we come back again!" (-_-") OmG! And i say a NO~ all the way.. lol..so paiseh.. when u play nicely.. halfway.. someone meddle around with your keyboard (-_-") as if.. you played the wrong note.

So today was quite shocked also.. when she was paying for her drink. The cashier called her , "Sir". And then, "oops.. im sorry." My friend has short hair.. wear a pink polo tee plus a canvas short. Hmm..so.. err... oh well..

My comments for the day would be.."We've never stop eating since we got out. And also..we spent quite alot. Mainly on FOOD. So yeah.. err..Overall, i feel myself being a pig. Feels hungry very fast and easily."

- evileen

Thursday, October 20, 2005

how come so many people curse me everyday sob sob..
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Curse No. 1:

my colleague saw me using the "plastic bottle of green tea" and while i was drinking, he said, "HEY! you're going to drink that?! you know you will get cancer like this..you know??"

Okie..then i changed to my kor's purple bottle already --> now mine.

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Curse No. 2:

Then today as usual, my colleague will say, " i think i've grown shorter.. T_T i dont want to talk to you anymore..coz you're taller." LOL..then did the data-entry halfway he was singing "dum dum..." until one part of the tune "DUM!!" @_@ " Look!! This person is 1m 8cm" [=.="] And then all the craps like.. err, "dont you know that taller people DIE faster? it's because..their heart has to work more.. you know.. transfer the blood to all parts of the body.. then taller people have longer body.. so their hearts will have to work harder, and thus will break down more easily. I mean it.. seriously.. no joking" *scratches head* Can someone tell me if that's really true?! T_T Im gonna die soon sob.

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Curse No. 3:

Today someone blogged ar X_X i wont reveal the address but i quoted this part:

- evileen

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Today was really cool. Initially only 4 persons agreed to go for the "excursion", then managed to get 3 other persons to join in the fun, that makes 4 gers 3 guys = 7 persons in overall.

Well jes was late in the morning as usual, we waited for her like 32+15 = 47 mins at amk station. making the other two of us late as well joining the rest at bishan??

We reached Pasir Ris took the bus to downtown east i supposed? Then got there and asummed that it was going to rain. But the weather really looks fine to me! LOL.. Ahem. As the "organizer" then i psyho-ed them in, for those who're not really keen to enter like melvin and py? Hees! So gh got his fren to help us got the queue and bought the tickets altogether for a card of 10 persons.

We went in, not decisive of what to be the first ride and i suggested something that is really not that totally just to warm up. X_X and guess what?? GH asked us to queue up for something, and said it's air-conditioned, then i dont even know what it's all about, and then i got in and almost got killed. So melvin maybe due to his tiredness, didnt want to join in anymore, so went out to wait for us. So left 3 of us : jes py yune, GH and tudi and me (-_-") split up into 2 groups. py jes yune formed a group for the first to go, and rest of us tudi and GH for the next. X_X throughout the journey..i cant see anything at all, totally dark. i slowly closed my eyes when the thing actually started, and then was like "WOW SO DAMN FAST!" I could feel myself like about to fall off the track as only the secured part is for the legs. and im seated on the left that sounded " wrong to me", else i could choose "right" for the "right seat" get what i mean? X_X So i " oh my god oh my god " all the way.

I was thinking to myself, what can be more scarier than this? I suggested the most "not thrilling" rides for warm up.. but then the first was already err.. @_@

next ride was the "Pirate". Jes and the guys wanna seat at the end, whereas py n melvin seated at the middle, and me, in between forgot who's beside me. I would say.. looks normal and boring, but the feeling when you got onto it, is totally different. I nv expected it to be like this..That's why it scared the freak off me as well.

So for the first two rides i wasnt very stable even when i got out. Cant even walk properly, and cried during the "Pirate", tears of fright and fun.

then they went invertor, then i stayed there just to watch jes' expression. No expression. Nothing! T_T so damn disappointed. Wanna capture it on a cam or something..so next was the 360 degress as well, this time i joined just for the sake of jes n also fun, yune waited outside instead. X_X tell u.. DAMN HORRIFYING! your body..okie..leave your seat.. and hangs in the air like so long, speed is really fast until it's beyond words can describe, and then me n jes as group, and GH n tudi for the other group. X_X Jes so light.. we spin like 3 or 4 times 360 degrees, then for tudi and GH only 2 times XD coz they're heavier?

Then we tried the haunted house. Damn funny before you go in. They will say the rules like not to frighten, kiss, or punch the ghosts.. There'll be a movie shortly just before the event.. then we went in ..we were finding the room for the "movie clip" then we walk and walk.. "eh.. how come still no?" then (-_-") someone tapped on my back. i thought it's someone in our group but no. it's the "ghost", then lol i laughed and say "HEY!" . Went all the way in just to grab yune's arm very hard, and jes to grab my bag like making it heavier then i was saying , "DONT MAKE MY BAG HEAVIER! GRAB ME!" then she grabbed my hand already.. then me n jes n yune closed our eyes and screamed and laughed all the way out. only the guys know the stuff inside whaha, X_X NO MOVIE CLIP! CHEATED!!

Then i tried the invertor with them since they're so keen on another round. lol.. FUN. I requested to sit in the middle, so me n jes in the middle guys at the sides. LOL gh like ask, "wanna grab my hand?" (-_-") so damn evil.. keep looking at ppl's faces, then tell me, " hey open your eyes! we've reached!" then i really believed! i thought it stopped moving. Then to my astonishment, i saw myself still in 180 degrees position STOPPED! @_@ and i screamed for this last stun for the ride. X_X stupid GH!!

Then we went to go kart again i think.. ya we went go kart before the invertor actually@_@. then like queued so long. my 1st time i crashed in the middle of the road. 2nd time my kart stucked in between the 2 super super steep slopes. That is, the super ever steepest road slopes i haven seen and driven in my life. Engine dont work (-_-") was like stepping on the pedal to go forward then it wont. if i dont step on anything, it just falls backwards and i think might roll backwards down and bang on other upcoming cars. X_X Really not very satisfied with the go kart ..it's spoilt! No. 25!!! ARGH. X_X Why?!?!?! I just wanna do better and see if i can have the talent to drive in the future.. this is like so easy and yet i cant handle it well..or maybe just becoz the kart is spoilt X_X oh! im just consoling myself. To learn driving or not to learn?

So at night i actually threw up after a 2nd rounds of the rides, wow first time i vommitted so smoothly. Feeling is damn shiok after throw-up. So went dinner thereafter at 8pm, reached Lau pasak at 9pm X_X i suggested the place.. but the good food "meegoreng cum zhi cha stall" has shifted or temporarily stopped or whatever @_@ im so guilty.. so everyone of us get other stuff that is not really filling and each a desert. Nice dessert!

X_X didnt know they wanna catch a movie thereafter. So we actually alighted at bishan, coz dont know how to discuss on the train when it's so crowded we're seated at opposite seats and blocked by ppl who are standing. @_@ And thought i could watch with them.. But i called my bro and asked so many times even my father, he say no..Then wanna go back.. they bluffed me no more train at 11.30pm X_X so bad! feel so cheated and also guilty making them sian 1/2 less a person. Luckily i got home before parents.. coz i really chiong home..1 min before i think (-_-")then mom saw me out of the toilet, wet. "So likes to hang out late huh?" Then no more nagging le haha. coz my kor ask papa, papa ask mama, then mama knows i wanna watch midnight de show X_X. nvm..could have asked yune's papa to fetch me home hor X_X since he's there to check on her?? =X

Today really was the first time i feel so thrilled, excited, scared, and enjoyed! Really memorable for the first trip to Escape.. Can say it will be a miss if you have nv go there b4.

all in all~ I was totally freaked out and it's awesome! Thanks yune for the belated bdae present.. and also thanks to those who came and join in the fun. Whahaha!

- evileen

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Today damn slack sia. Not because i did alot of work. But i slacked too much. My colleagues say.."Wah....you.. really trying to be SLOW leh.. so slow..let time pass..."

I love doing data-entry more than calling people X_X. So thats why..=x im so bad..

Then proceeded to the another room for briefing, suddenly one colleague tell me , "okie.. follow that guy.. WOW You have really BIG eyes." *he smiles*

hmm.. today food was fabulous. soy-bean milk $0.50 and the day's special : prawn noodle is $2.00 @ the SLF building at fifth level. hmm my working place at SLF podium. so quite near.. But only need to scan alot. Scan IC, print sticker, to take the lift up must scan the bag by the detector. LOL... all just for the bowl of prawn noodle.. worth it ba. =x

Well.. today's nothing special.. Kinda bored towards 6pm.. coz have to make calls X_X. Sian!! Tomorrow i think we gotta do alot of data-entry ba =X. And mediacorp project.. so will be working from 10am to 6pm. then 6pm to 9.30pm for the mediacorp project.. Monday mediacorp auditor will come down to hear us out. Hmm.. so must be careful abit.. okie.. shall end it here.

- evileen

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Super sian and tiring day. Started making calls at 10am to 6pm. But with funny colleagues will be the key source to lighten up your day.=)

Today sian 1/2 by an 18 yr old guy.. i asked till halfway. ><" the phone line was off.. I asummed it was the phone's prob, and then i changed over to other stations just to get a better phone. And i called back.. before i finished my sentence, he hung up on me. LOL.. And my colleagues say, why not use own no. and call same person and say some vulgarities. LOL.

People can be very extreme. They can be super nice or super bad. One lady whom i called this morning was like.. WHOA.. so godly..She helped me with some qns.. and then thanked me for asking her in the mid of the interview. "oh..thank you very much ^^.. i know you are very concerned about me.. really thanks.. " Whoa? I thought to myself, " i should be the one thanking her, first time.. surveyee can be so enthusiastic..and still thank me?

Later on.. i got a few completed although everyone finds it a "challenge". Hard to get interviewees.. there's also another guy aged 22. Not bad.. helped me to answer some questions..so nice.. and the part about the email address,"what for..? is it necessary..?"

"Hmm.. you know.. as part of the particulars for the interview.."

"oh well.. i will help you then "

And actually spelt it out like something , "Delta..hmm you know what's delta im referring? I mean D.. just incase you got confused. *blabla*"

Great experiences i would say from my workplace. Though the job is damn sucky. But i got to learn that there are many types of people around on earth. Increase my level of awareness haha.

The manager wasnt in today, and the supervisors went for seminar at around 4 =P. Was feeling so happy.. lol *grin* time to slack a bit.

"Wah.. how come you slower than me."

"=P I wanna slack"

"Queen of the slackers.."

And after work.. at 6pm.. the girls will go off without me X_X never wait de.. lol nvm la. But got this colleague very gentleman, X_X thought everyone went off.. so i took my time to take bag.. sign out.. talk to auntie awhile.. then wanna go out my colleague still standing there then we walk out together. Im so selfish..lol i also nv wait for people then off liao. X_X nvm.. next time i will wait for whoever going off then..

Hands very tired today.. dont know why.. X_X whole body aches like that.. I feel so old.. but number 18 look small.. what crap i m talking lol. okie shall end it here.

- evileen

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

DONT LIKE PEOPLE TO READ MY BLOG AND MAKE ME SADDER BY ASKING STUPID QNS. I DONT WANT TO MENTION THE NAME. BUT YOU KNOW YOURSELF. IF YOU ARE GOING TO ASK ME ARE YOU THE ONE. I WILL SAY FUCK OFF TO YOU. TRY ME. I CAN BE NICE N CRUEL. IT DEPENDS ON WHO'S THE ONE TO GET THE APPROPRIATE TREATMENT.

- evileen

Today started data-entry at 10am. until it's around 4 or 5pm we become (-_-") Coz were afraid that after completing the data-entries, gotta make phone calls again T_T.

And we were right. (-_-")

Hees.. i do slowly.. slack more. X_X But also made phone calls for the last hour.

We were amazed how the surveys were done.Not because it was beautifully done, but because they are craps. jian ming said, "Wah.. cheat also dont cheat until so obvious."

LOL and we were like laughing like hell.

"Hmm.. i think they got the address and then telephone numbers from the Yellow Pages maybe..maybe..hmm.."


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Wrote a big para. but someone pissed me off by asking some stupid qns. so wasnt very pleased, so deleted the whole chunk of my feelings and happenings.
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so after 6 pm.. JM was asking me, "Stay la..$21 more $_$" And sky regretted staying on X_X sot sot.. learnt that they went for chalet last night after work n totally nv sleep. Superwoman.

what a day.

LOL..

- evileen

Monday, October 10, 2005

Today started work at 10am. Just nice. Wasnt feeling well at all when i went to work. But today just nice for me. Slacking work. XD

As for the lunch. 4 of us ( me n 3 other colleagues), was finding the canteen. WE assumed that there's another canteen somewhere at lv 5. then we were about to take the lift. Security guards asked us to go to a machine and scan IC then key in the name and print a sticker with your name on it. Security level so tight..Even wanna use the lift also must scan IC..print sticker...and scan the bag.

Hmm.. then we realised. The canteen was no longer there. =X Wahahah! So funny.. X_X and go back down..And went to the small small canteen instead.

Nice oh.. Today i feel so different from last week. Working in the day is different from working in the night ba. IF you work day time~ still have night time to rest and everything then at night can chit chat /gg, but at night work.. like no life X_X cant go out.. coz scare later will be late for work and bla bla.

Manager asked us to work on a small project for mediacorp for the ratings. Hmm.. so supposed to work on this friday saturday plus monday for 6pm to 9.30pm a few hours more, so we will be working 10am to 9.30pm for the days. Hmm but saturday i dont want oh.. =X wanna go out CHIONG~.. X_X dont know.. if all can make it anot..or rather one of them. hais. if i can "xi sheng xiao wo", so why cant skip just for once ne? X_X Hopefully.. nothing goes wrong with the arrangement for the outing. Hope it gonna be fun n exciting XD. WEE!~

Okie.. gonna chiong back to my server ^^. TaTa!

- evileen

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Wee!~ Im so blessed to have friends like you all. ^^

MY computer probs no more. IE is back. Server is getting finer. People are being my "beta-server testerS". And yune's holiday coming soon. And dissolved some issues with my dearest friend. =P And my job! From 6.00pm to 9.30pm shift, changed back to the the arranged/agreed time , 10am to 6pm ^^. YEAH!! That means more MONEY, MORE "DECENT" LIFE!!~ That goes~THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS AND HIP HIP! HURRAY!~

Today went out with my two girls *grin*, jes n spy. Too bad yune havent rest yet X_X. Or else..we will have more fun then!~

Hmm nice wor. I made an Ro installer on my own, especially for my server. It's a 3 cd in all, so hope i can pass it around to my friends and see if they wanna try my server out =P bring more fun to ppl.

Yesterday after work..took the bus with someone who's working at my workplace. She seems in her 50s or 60s already. But very well spokened and well-mannered. Nice to chat with her! Hees..When i see people happy, i feel really good and happy too. ^^ For it's a joy to bring happiness to people around you. It's really tiring to hate, dislike, or hold grudges against people unless the case is really irreversible.So.. I've given some thoughts about life. And =X that's how my "war" with friends has ended, and brought us to greater heights and strengthened our friendships. Sometimes things arent what you want it to be. But to change it, or to make something happen, you have to do something,for things dont happen on their own. It happens for a reason.

Oh my god! I've talked so much about.. hees..my perspectives in life. People makes part of your life. Without people, you have no life! =)Give it a thought!

- evileen

Thursday, October 06, 2005

What is happening here.. MY IE for blogger is back to normal again.. Weird.

Everyday is a torture for me. It's drving me nuts.

Why do i say that?

Imagine you have to wake up early in the morning like almost everyday for no reason, or to be blamed for sleeping late, and then people wake you just for that. And then, you have to eat breakfast, and do sweeping, and then shortly after that will be your next meal again, lunch.

Thereafter, you gotta do whatever you wanna do just in a couple of hours, eg, chatting online and doing my game server, and then at 4 plus you have to prepare to go for work, and eat your next meal again, dinner. Imagine Dinner at 4 plus? OH HELL!

And then.. my one n only bus will only come when i waited for 10 or 15 minutes?? I saw so many bus of the same no. passing by already.. and mine was.. (-_-") not a single one!!!

6.00pm to 9.30 pm.. 7 pm will miss my Dragon Show.. 8pm... miss nothing =x 9pm.. miss Xfiles de show.. T.T All the only shows im watching.. I gotta miss them all..

And yesterday.. manager led us to her office, and ask us to choose from 2 options,

1)for day work: face to face survey at any location near your house, pay you by commission basis. Meaning what you earn will be how much you have done.

2)night shift: Hourly rate :$6 , phone interview, no matter how many you have done, will still get that hourly rate pay.

Of course.. the smart ones will definitely choose the hourly rate, if they arent very confident of taking that "challenge".

So erm.. waiting for a call from my agent/company again.. to clarify what is the best solution for me. Take on another job of a better timing or pay? or.. stay on to the night shift work (-_-")

- evileen

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Initially I thought this day will suck. Got a bit pissed off before i went off to work. Because of some personal stuff, not appropriate to reveal to any.

Woke up at 8am plus in the early morning, and then clarified with the agent my working time. Some managers are muddle-headed. They got mixed up with what the Agents told them. We ARE supposed to office hours, and night shift is only for training. Night shift is for another batch of people, not us.

Today i completed many surveys in a row, although thereafter, the calls were either refused/rejected/no answer. I'm quite surprised at my speed though. People surrounding me was trembling in their voice already when i have asked so much from the consumers. They were startled at my sheets and rather impressed with me. Thx thx ^^.whahaha!!That was err.. only for the first hour i made it -_-".

Oh ya!! 5 of us posted there from the same agency, then 4 of them is Ngee Ann Poly. So coincidental. 2 girls from MassCom Yr 2.5, and another guy is BIT Yr 2. Then one of them from my secondary sch!! Haha.. can recognise her as "senior" from my sch, but she say she nv see me b4!! =x

Today was quite funny.
I normally ask some weird qns when there's no answer after the phone is picked up.

Joke no. 1 for the day:

"Halo? do you speak english?"

"no."

-_-"

Joke no.2 for the day:

"Can i have interview with u for about 5 mins?"

"hmm.. what will i get from it? Nothing is free on this world.. Everything must be done for a reason."

"oh.. haha.. hope you can just answer some qns, it's just a interview."

"so.. when will i get it?"

Joke no. 3 for the day:

*quota full for the females, so have to get males surveyees.*

( a child picks up the phone.)

"Halo?"

"Hi.. im..................can i speak to your parent?"

"Sorry i need a name. i dont know who are you looking for."

"Err..so any adults that i can speak to ? Your dad??"

"Plz wait.. I have to ask my mom."

*my fren wonders. how come.. father have to ask mother b4 answering just a call.. hmm.. he did something unfaithful in the past?*

Joke no. 4 for the day:

* in chinese *

"Halo..Im................oh ni jiang hua yu ma? Wo shi shi chang diao cha de...guan yu bin qi lin de."

"huh?? bin qi lin? sheng mo lai de?"

"erm..Shi xue gao."

"SHENG MO?? XUE YA GAO???"

*me giggled for a few sec*

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"If i were to speak about him next time, plz stop me."

"But i still think both of u makes a pair.."

"..."

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- evileen

hmm.. it has been a few days, im back again =x.

This job.. i would say, "it sux."
Alone. No one talk chit chat with. Talks to consumers for the "training". Do survey over the phone. Some ppl dont understand my english and i dont know why the hell my chinese sux now. Some communications problems.. err. It's a computer CATI thingy. They will direct you a number, and then there's instructions on the screen that will show you the questions that will be asked, and the range of answers. Some kids will answer it. ><" And i tell you. They dont say, "plz wait a moment", "give me a minute", or "hold on plz", they'll just say , "WAIT" and slam the phone down on the table. Hmm.. what a big discovery i have made, on the children now these days.

Kinda not pleased with the management side. Agent said that im supposed to work from 10pm to 6pm, (talks to office ppl), but Sandy said , "perhaps we still need some more training", since we are new to the job. Quality control checks that we're not that confident enough to speak to Executives. Hmm..So now rotting till night ba -_-" then go work. Dont like to work night.. =( Coz.. i wanna on server for ppl to play =P. Then today 6pm to 9.30pm again. Short hours. Affect my "life". And also not so much $$. Walk alone to bustop.Take bus alone T.T.No one there is friendly except one uncle and auntie oh. At night so dark. Feel lost =x coz i nearly got stucked in the building. All doors are locked and lifts deactivated. Quite boring de job. =x Haiz.

I'm glad that we will be paid on a hourly rate? And not commission base. ><" Because I got rejected for almost all the calls, but one unusual thing is, Candy (i dont know what's her position), says males normally dont eat ice cream so they normally reject the survey. But my only SUCCESSFUL and "quite" completed surveys *2* comes from males. *scratches head* They sound..*hmm*
But then.. when ppl accept the survey =x i will feel ^^. Coz.. they are so kind=x although /gg not completed/refused ones i will also get the $$ ba. But i scare my performance not good enough. I dont want to eat cuttlefish X_X. So stress!!!

- evileen

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Peiyi called me. Oh well.. Nobody ask me for that meet up.

Well.. I just recalled my agent named Jane, the one Im going to report to on Monday is called Sam. Whahaha!! You still dont get it?! Jane + Sam = The movie "Zhen Xin Hua"

Kinda bored Hmm.. or should I put it in another words.. Im feel empty. No sadness. No anger. No more vexed. Nor excited.

Trying to add in some custom made NPC on my own. Gonna do some work later.

Just came across a funny and nice conversation about RO ( for people who play RO might under stand this.)

Devil Dodger= The player

Munak = The pet

Enjoy!

Devil Dodger: my Munak, cast a safty wall... hurry...

Munak: Safety Wall !!

Devil Dodger: Now, die Baphomet...

Devil Dodger: Magnus Exorcismus !!

Munak: /hp

*Devil Dodger dies*

Munak: /omg

Devil Dodger: hey i didn't tell you to cast it on yourself... /sob

Devil Dodger: now, please resurrect me...

Munak: Resurrection !!

*nothing happens*

Munak: Ooops, I'm sorry I forgot the gems... /sob

- evileen

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