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A FairY TalE No MorE..

You know the story

You read the books

Boy meets girl

Then they fall forever in love

But I know better

So here goes a tale

Of the realest of the real

Listen

Now once upon a time in a small world

It was everything that I dreamed of

He was my gem and I was his pearl

Nothing could come between us

A prince charming to call my own

Until the day that he broke my heart

And left me wonderin all alone

Pickin my mind and soul apart

Used to believe in love

Used to believe in fairy tales

Since my heart's been crushed

I don't believe in much, I need help

Don't know which way to turn

Figure it out for myself

I've just started to learn

There's no such thing as fairy tales

Is a good story supposed to end

Unhappily ever after

Just as wonderful as it begins

And carry on for a few chapters

Baby how come each time I open up

I can't seem to get past stage one

I guess it's time for me to close up

And go back on the shelf because I'm done

Twinkle twinkle little star

Why do my dreams seem so far

Up above the world so high

Won't somebody tell me why

Can you help me out

Can you tell me what love is all about

Cause I never known it for myself

That's why I don't believe in fairy tales no more

Friday, November 21, 2008

If given a choice, I wouldn't want to be me. Hearing those heart-stabbing words from the mouth of a parent, I just feel like I'm a bastard. (No. If you're wondering if I'm a illegitimate child, I don't think I am.)

But my mind wanders. I can't help to think that way.

Just because I said something like, "wahh you're fully utilising me to the fullest" <-- Ok, be it that I'm 100% free or busy (like preparations for my exams), I get ticked off with, "If I have known this, I would have killed you before you're born." ( And halo?? Don't ever think I'm born with a silver spoon like everyone of you. No. I don't get allowance since 19 which is normal la haha. I work since I'm 16 k. AND I PAY FOR MY SCH FEES! Because I don't like oweing more obligations to people.) My blood is a 'B+'. Obviously, it's different from all my family members. They are 'A+' (parents) and 'O' (my brothers.). This always adds on to my suspicion if I really belong to this place. (Ok, stop thinking that I'm not a illegitimate child. >.<><" K.. Am I suffering from depression now? Sometimes my mind just turned so weak that I broken down and cried. I need a break man..

Should I follow the Taiwan President, Chen Sui Bian? -__- This seriously kills my appetite now..

- evileen

Friday, November 21, 2008

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