Saturday, February 19, 2005
The flowers blossomed.
The mangoes has grown.
Time seems frozen.. is passing slowly..from day to night..and back to day again..
Bored.
Interest in nothing.
No excitement.
Everyday is a routine.
like oink oink <("(OO)")>
Sleep, eat and sleep again.
o eileen eileen wherefore art thou eileen..?
Where is the full of laughter and rubbish eileen? o.O
She's not here, and i have to find her..
All the while i thought i'm a superb actress, but no.. the mother seems to know it all.
"You dont look happy.."
"Are you alright?"
"Having headache..fever or something..?"
"Eaten?"
"Dont lie to me if you have not eaten.."
"Not feeling well..?"
These are the series of questions that the mother will ask. o.O
Her life seems full of surprises.
Perhaps she's too blur..and i shall turn her smarter.
Sad but cant let it out. Too much for her..too sudden..that she hasnt have the time to think and feel about it.
Failed FFa..
The very first time she failed a test.
The most important module..
Dealt with too much blow.
Enough..
She can take it no more
too depressed.. too afraid..
but it seems that heaven have it all decided..
it's predestined that the accounting results is always = the econs results
for last yr, infa=58/100
econs=58/80
now, ffa=18.5 /40
econs= 18.5/20
and that's how she took the "suicide" step, to report her results to her mom..
*writer sobbing*
her mom wasnt angry..but rather, she's concerned.
She knows she's sad..
but..she was glad for her econs test results..
she chatted and smiled..
Eileen then proceeded to her everyday 'piano piece' - Yesterday once more
The mother stood there and listened as she had never before.
She was pleased and turned on the volume louder for eileen, "Play it out loud. Dont keep it only to yourself."
Eileen is a 'sotong' girl. Every song that she plays is only half-half. Although the song is not played with the second part repetition, they really enjoyed it. Her sense of achievement comes not from knowing how to play the music, but from the one who appreciates it.
*reddish eyes*
*wiping tears* writer do has feelings ok??
hopes that her life will turn out to be fine..
no one should kill her slowly, or rather kill at all.
^_^ pass her ffa test..i wish.
and..hehe try to be an alien for econs?
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Well, for the first time there will always be a lesson, just like what a close friend said.
Come to think of it, lesson means --> learn something right? ( doesnt have to pay at all for this kind of lesson -.-" okie.. i think i am talking nonsense for this part..)
But, to stress this..
Don't say out the 3 words 'ILU' unless you really mean it o.O
To start and suddenly stop is really horrible.. and even cruel if you try to make that person think there's a little ray of hope, then to smash them like little bubbles.
LOL
Talk like saint uh huh? ^_^ author ma..
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Back to my wishes again..
bring back o...bring back..o bring back my eileen to me..
Take it easy! Time will heal
It's gonna be fine =)
Isnt it nice to feel like a child again? ^_^
~chou chou!! go bathe le.. TaTa ^^~
- evileen