Thursday, January 18, 2007
Yay! Evileen is back to blogging. Has been lazing for so long huh?
I have no idea what happened to the previous tagboard. The userid was found to be invalid. Maybe they doesnt like the speech in there? lol
The last semester of school is going to end soon. Time really flies, just like in a twitch of an eye, and you see exams are around the corner :(
Yesterday is history. Today is present. The future is a mystery.
But things that already took place seem as if it just took place a moment ago. For many times i was having a mixed of feelings; anger, sadness, happiness, confusion, suspicion, and fear.
Yesterday was kinda funny. I sat in the car my brother was driving. He kept peeking at my expression. And here goes the conversation (though its not exact words) :
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him: Are you scared?
me: Yea.. Very. :S
him: Why??
me: I dont know.. Just scared?
him: Why are you scared? Can you give me some feedback please for my driving skills? It rocks ok.
me: *paused*
me: Err.....Hey.. We're on the road, you're driving. :S:S
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Sometimes, yea i feel creeps when my brother was driving. Like it can just stop so suddenly. If it werent in time.. then lol.. i might not be here typing. Seeing him drive were as if im driving a go-kart in escape theme park. :( If anyone doesnt know what happened to me on that go-kart, I crashed at the downturn :( ( The slope was very very very steep ok.. Then the road wants you to turn to your utmost right like so instantly)
And, now i realise why is that i always get last in position with my friend in Daytona. My car in the game doesnt even move. Thats because i always have a bad habit of stepping on both the accelerator and the brake pedals. (Left leg on brake, Right leg on accelerator, stepping on them at the same time.)
So the moral behind these stories, is err, never touch a car for i will be accounted for the death of many innocent. :(
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And for the sad part.. I was feeling down. Especially to what happened to my cousins' family. They have to lie to their grandma who was dying that their mom was on a oversea trip. ( Did that make the mother think that the daughter is enjoying herself, like when she's dying? Will she feel sad?) It was a white lie. A white lie that could save her from tears for a short while. Their mom had to go for a surgery. How would a dying mother feel when you know that your child is having a bad time?
I was so freaked out when my brother told me about the part they have taken out. They even cut it into halves? X_x That's even gross. And they took pictures of it.. and yea.. i guess it was bloody, very. I went to visit her, and i was feeling so sorry for her, and with another someone. What can i do? I dont know what should i do to help. Their mom wanted to show me the pictures X_x but i think it was kinda rude of me of rejecting it. Although i can accept horror movies and gross scenes in movies. But i cant accept things like this that are happening in a real world.
Have you ever wondered, if anything that has ocurred is it for real or what? Sometimes its too bad/good to be true, that you cant even bring yourself to believe it? Will the feelings be the same if you experienced it yourself, or just by hearing it? Maybe some will think that what you're always saying is always a joke to them. How would you feel when someone said "haha" if you're saying something that is very depressing (maybe a person's death)? Or, they dont even bother about what you're saying. How would you feel?
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Wonders of life: The tale of ABC
It's story-telling time!
A has a bunch of good friends. She likes to be around with them. Always making her feeling blessed to have them as friends. But still, the ones that were found to be closest to her is B and C. (Haha! Coz you see how the alphabetical order goes, its A.. then B then followed by C ma)
"ABC tiger beer" always hangout together, they're always together. They shit, they eat, they play together. (Cool huh?)
But things started to change. ( i mean yea really alot ya) Like how the way C answers to A's questions. And when C asks A's questions, C doesnt really like A's answers. B also have the same answers as A, but C dont like it. So she complained to D, that B and C was ignoring her questions.(A didnt know it till a long time after)
1st incident:-
A: Someone died
C: haha
A: =.="
C: Oh.. is real? Sorry sorry.
2nd incident:-
A: T.T Crying now
C: ^.^
A: T.T why so happy
C: Coz i like it, cry more kays?
A: Why??
C: Coz you're crying
A: ... Are you kidding? Fine.
C: ^_^
*silence*
C: Sorry sorry.
3rd incident:-
A: Im feeling so sad.
C: Im busy now ok. Im doing something.
A: Oh.. ok..
A: *mumbling about her sadness* (for a long period)
*Mr C comes into the scene, talking to A*
C to MR C: HONEY!
A: ...
A: Werent you.. busy? But Im sad.. like no one is listening to me..
*going off from the scene*
(after a long while)
C to A: Hey, im not ignoring you. I was just busy ok?
(So if you were A, would you want talk to C? No right? Yea, so A was cold to C till the following night. They started talking already like as usual.)
(at 1am that very night when things were already working out well)
MR C: Oh well.. my hun is sad..
A: Whys that?
MR C: Well you havent forgiven her, have you? She said she's sad coz you havent forgiven her.
A: Eh? Forgive..?
MR C: Ya.. I guess she's really feeling very sad now from the way she said it
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A: I have heard from MR C.. about that.. (thinking that she must be really sorry even though things were already fine)
C: Im going off now.
A: Oh.. cya..
C: I dont know how to face you.
*logs off*
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The next day..
B: Hey C gave me a msg last night like in the morning 1am. She asked me to reply her asap, for advice, and she said you're really very angry.
A: Eh? But i thought things are already fine? Im talking to her!
B: Well i dont know..
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A: So what did C tell you?
MR C: Erm.. she didnt talk to you coz she didnt hear it
A:...
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A: I guessed she must have talked to you about something.
MR A: Yup
A: So.. what did she say?
MR A: She said when her honey came she wasnt busy anymore. So she talked to him.
A: -_-"
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A wasnt angry anymore. But like after hearing these ridiculous stuff. The thermometer in her is going to break. Coz it has hit above 100 degrees celsius. You know those fake leatherbags. Yea they use fake materials to cover it up. And it looks so convincing.. so real.. people will buy it. Just like C's stories. But they aint real anyway.
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(A with MR AA)
C: Bored.
B: Whys that?
C: Dont disturb you both.
A: Join us.
C: Okays.
(after C joined A with her MR AA)
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C: If only.. everything can start anew just like a new day. Where all the past will be forgotten, and i can be forgiven of my past.
(*kept saying this till A very -_-"*)
MR AA: Well.. what past have you got? Why do you ask to be forgiven? There's none, right?
C: Thats a relief to hear that from MR AA.. well A..I got it.
(well A doesnt know how to make it clear to C that there's really nothing wrong so A confronted C)
*after a few hours, things are fine again*
4th incident:-
*A was together with MR AA, MR A, and C*
(seeing C sitting so close to MR A)
A: Do you have to sit that close to her?
MR A: No. It wasn't me who wants to sit close.
(Mr A moving away from C and sits close to A.)
(C moves at the same time, and move close to MR A again.)
A: OMG.
MR A: She's the one trying to get close to me!!
( and it repeats again for a few times)
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The next day MR A told A..
MR A: She told me you would be angry when she's sitting close to me.
"I can feel C's anger towards me. Right now im sitting close to you."
A: ...So why does she sit near u still? ><"
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IF anyone of you think that im having weird msn nicks of some sort.. Just look at the ABC story here. Ok.. its for the C. Dont keep asking who is C ok. It can be imaginary. It can also be real. And C will know what she's doing. And A knows what C is trying to do ok. C dont assume that A dont know anything. And C stop asking everyone if the A doesnt like you or whatever. If you think A dont like you, then means dont like lor. Then you must have done something wrong that make her think that way right? And stop trying to get close to MR A, for goodness sake. Thanks.
If you feel any guilt, or if you think the C in the story sounds like you, then you're C lor. Its not my fault. Im not mentioning any names here. And, i didnt force anyone to read this. Apart from that, this is my blog. I can write whatever things i like. So have no critics or whatever. Because it will only be your own problem, and not mine. Please understand that. :D
- evileen