Thursday, September 15, 2005
Finished my last paper today, but i just couldnt sense the happiness yet.. but i dont know how well i will do for the exams.. and although i feel relaxed already.. but i think im going to be bored soon. For some reasons: loneliness;friendless;no fun
After the paper.. our class went to west mall eat jap-food for lunch..
Soon after that, we headed home. And then i went out again to buy King's ice cream.
Erm...After exams.. I really have many thoughts that linger on my mind.
Feeling lonely out of the blue.. becoz i needed someone badly just to say , "I've finished my EXAMS!!" I recalled the days when i went out with...*for me to know and for you to find out* So many happening things were going on.. and i felt really fortunate to have known some ppl
One of the meetings..:
Went out shop shop.. then dinner time already..~ then went to foodcourt.. but was still packed and crowded.. cant find any seats..then we went ard to look for seats n he stayed to keep watch on one table~ I followed my fren to walk abt~ then my hp rang~
"hello?"
"found already.."
"oh.. then where's it then?"
"the place where you've abandoned me..."
It may seem that it's just a few simple exchanging sentences..But to me.. on that particular day.. these words really shaken me. Kept thinking about it.. then was really guilty coz i think for some occasions i dont really spare a thought for the others? Partly becoz I luv to stick with my fren... then wouldnt be comfortable if i were to stay on. So.. I apologised online when i went home. "It's ok..", was the reply.
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Walking outside the MRT station is a everyday routine for me. Always so long and crowded. And there's this two couples standing infront of me.. kinds of blocked my way.. When couples walk together.. they walk really slow.. so i will forgive them on this part, but their size... like 4 times of me.. really blocking the entire path already.. For a moment, i was telling to myself, "Dont ever pity yourself when you are committing the same mistake" ARGH~IM FAT!!
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Then comes the shelter path to my way home..
This guy..was limping.. might be because of old age. I've told myself, "No one can escape from the clutches of ageing, live life to the fullest, and make full use of your youth to do whatever things that you cant in the future."
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And now..I wish for many many things..
I wish.. I have friends.. I wish I can do things that i have nv been able to do..I wish..that some things can be like in the past~
Needed someone badly as a confidante~ to share my joys n sorrows all in all~ But no.. No one wanna be my confidante..Im so terribly sad.. that i have no friends.. not a single one..
I wish I have magic powers, to turn a object into a friend as a company. But all these things can be an exception, if only.. u were here.
- evileen