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A FairY TalE No MorE..

You know the story

You read the books

Boy meets girl

Then they fall forever in love

But I know better

So here goes a tale

Of the realest of the real

Listen

Now once upon a time in a small world

It was everything that I dreamed of

He was my gem and I was his pearl

Nothing could come between us

A prince charming to call my own

Until the day that he broke my heart

And left me wonderin all alone

Pickin my mind and soul apart

Used to believe in love

Used to believe in fairy tales

Since my heart's been crushed

I don't believe in much, I need help

Don't know which way to turn

Figure it out for myself

I've just started to learn

There's no such thing as fairy tales

Is a good story supposed to end

Unhappily ever after

Just as wonderful as it begins

And carry on for a few chapters

Baby how come each time I open up

I can't seem to get past stage one

I guess it's time for me to close up

And go back on the shelf because I'm done

Twinkle twinkle little star

Why do my dreams seem so far

Up above the world so high

Won't somebody tell me why

Can you help me out

Can you tell me what love is all about

Cause I never known it for myself

That's why I don't believe in fairy tales no more

Saturday, September 10, 2005

I always tell myself.. "Try your best.. do whatever you can.. how you want your result to be.. will be what you are doing right now.."

But is it true that hard work bear fruits..? I have doubts when i was trying to attempt the exam questions today. I was struggling so hard before the blaw paper just for this paper. I nv touch any other modules yet. All i did ...was for this paper.. and with the mindset that it'll be a letdown to Mrs Ang if i were to fail. I tried so hard.. I did everything i could .. even with very often excruciating headaches.. BUT WHAT? I still cant do it.. I felt like crying already when i was attempting the paper. How could this be ever be possible? The questions seem alien to me even though i've tried all the lecture illustrations.. Left so many parts intact..I think im going to be done for..

Im really scared..Im afraid i'll be driven to a stage where i couldnt take it anymore..I scare i will fail.. bring disgrace to my family.. I know failing doesnt mean that you're a disgrace..but my family thinks that way. Im already a poly student.. but what if i still do badly? I dont know..Im somehow demoralized already.. How i wish there's someone just to hear me out.. To be a listening ear.. and listen to all my troubles. Im always alone..

Hope everyone's words of encouragement and blessings can really work on me~ God bless me~ Because I've done what I can already..(T.T)

- evileen

Saturday, September 10, 2005

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